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DEAR AND Rev. Sir,
Jan. 27, 1778. I call you dear because I love you, and I shall continue to style you Reverend as long as you dignify me with that title. It is indeed a pretty sounding epithet, and forms a striking contrast in the usual application. The inbabitants of the moon (if there be any) have perhaps no idea how many Reverend, Right Reverend, and most Reverend sinners, we have in Europe. And yet you are reverend, and I revere you, because Í believe the Lord liveth in you, and has chosen you to be a temple of his presence, and an instrument of his grace.
I hope the two sermons you preached in London were made useful to others, and the medicines you took there were useful to yourself. I am glad to hear you are safe at home, and something better. Cheerful spring is approaching, then I hope the barometer of your spirits will rise. But the presence of the Lord can bring a pleasanter spring than April, and even in the depth of winter.
At present it is January with me, both within and without. The outward sun shines and looks pleasant, but his beams are faint, and too feeble to dissolve the frost. So is it in my heart; I have many bright and pleasant beams of truth in my view, but cold predominates in my frost-bound spirit, and they have but little power to warm me. I could tell a stranger something about Jesus that would perhaps astonish him : such a glorious person! such wonderful love ! such humiliation such a death1 and then what is he
now in himself, and what he is to his people! What a sun! what a shield! what a root! what a life! what a friend! My tongue can run on upon these subjects sometimes; and could my heart keep pace with it, I should be the happiest fellow in the country. Stupid creature! to know these things so well, and yet be no more affected with them! Indeed I have reason to be upon ill terms with myself! It is strange that pride should ever find any thing in my experience to feed rapon; but this completes my character for folly, vileness, and inconsistence, that I am not only poor, but proud; and though I am convinced Í am a very wretch, a nothing before the Lord, I am prone to go forth among my fellow-creatures as though I were wise and good.
You wonder what I am doing; and well you may; I am sure you would, if you lived with me. Too much of my time passes in busy idleness, too much in waking dreams. I aim at something; but hindrances from within and without make it difficult for me to accomplish any thing. I dare not say I am absolutely idle, or that I wilfully waste much of my time. I have seldom one hour free from interruption. Letters come that must be answered, visitants that must be received, business that must be attended to. I have a good many sheep and lambs to look after, sick and afflicted souls dear to the Lord; and therefore whatever stands still, these must not be neglected. Amongst these various avocations, night comes before I am ready for noon; and the week closes, when, according to the state of my business, it should not be more than Tuesday. ( precious, irrecoverable time! O that I had more wisdom in redeeming and improving thee! Pray for me, that the Lord may teach me to serve him better.
I am, &c.
April 28, 1778. I was not much disappointed at not meeting you at home. I knew how difficult it is to get away from
if you are seen in the street after breakfast. The horse-leech has three daughters, saying, Give, give: the cry there is, Preach, preach. When you have told them all, you must tell them more, or tell it them over again. Whoever will find tongue, they will engage to find ears. Yet I do not blame this importunity; I wish you were teased more with it in your own town; for though, undoubtedly, there are too many, both at Nand here, whose religion lies too much in hearing, yet in many it proceeds from a love to the truth, and to the ministers who dispense it. And I generally observe, that they who are not willing to hear a stranger (if his character is known,) are inditferent enough about hearing their own minister.
I beg you to pray for me. I am a poor creature, full of wants, I seem to need the wisdom of Solomon, the meekness of Moses, and the zeal of Paul, to enable me to make full proof of my ministry. But, alas ! you may guess the rest.
Send me the way to Christ. I am willing to be a debtor to the wise and unwise, to doctors and shoe-makers, if I can get a hint, or a nota bene, from any one, without respect to parties. When a house is on fire, Churchmen, Dissenters, Methodists, Papists, Moravians, and Mystics, are all welcome to bring water. At such times, nobody asks, Pray, friend, whom do you hear ? or, What do you think of the five points ? &c. &c.
I am, &c.
MY DEAR FRIEND,
July 17, 1778. I Know not that I have any thing to say worth postage, though perhaps, lad I seen you before you set off, something might have occurred which will not be found in my letter. Yet I write a line, because you bid me, and are now in a far, foreign country. You will find Mr.
a man to your tooth, but he is in Mr. W's connection. So I remember venerable Bede, after giving a high character of some contemporary, kicks his full pail of milk down, and reduces him almost to nothing, by adding, in the close, to this purpose: “ But, unhappy man, he did not keep Easter our way!" A fig for all connections, say I, and say you, but that which is formed by the bands, joints, and ligaments, the apostle speaks of, Eph. iv. 16. et alibi. Therefore I venture to repeat it, that Mr. though he often sees and hears Mr. W
and I believe loves him well, is a good man; and you will see the invisible mark upon his forehead, if you examine him with your spiritual spectacles.
Now, methinks, I do pity you: I see you melted with heat, stified with smoke, stunned with noise. Ah! what a change, from the brooks and bushes, and birds and green fields, to which you had lately access! Of old they used to retire into the deserts for mortification. If I was to set myself a moderate penance, it might be to spend a fortnight in London in the height of summer. But I forget myself: I hope the Lord is with you, and then all places are alike. He makes the dungeon and the stocks comfortable, Acts xvi. yea, a fiery furnace and a lion's den. A child of God in London seems to be in all these trying situations : but Jesus can