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into more than his usual reserve and taci- come back. And oh! Dick, I would so like turnity. you to be happy."

One marriage often makes more: and before the summer ended the young parson's best-man came back and courted the pretty bridemaid Jane. Again cousin Jessie insisted on making her wealth common property, and portioning the other sister-"exactly as Maurice would have done if he were here." So she expressed it in her letter, and repeated afterward when she came to Wyvill Court. But her visit this time was brief, embracing only the wedding-day and the day after. She said her "engagements" prevented her longer stay. And, after the first day, Agnes ceased to urge it. With all her sweetness there was about Miss Raeburn a degree of firmness, ill-natured people might say independence of character, which made it perfectly clear that she had, in small things and great, the power of making up her own mind and keeping to it. Besides, Agnes sometimes stealthily watched her brother Richard—his hard, set face; his nervous, restless mannerand she let Jessie Raeburn go.

It was the night after she was gone-the first night the brother and sister had ever spent together, they two alone-that Agnes first ventured, tremblingly, upon a subject which had caused her anxious thought for a long while. She did so with much hesitation-being a good deal afraid of it and of Richard: but any thing was better than suspense. Besides, lately, with her sharpened experience, she had felt so certain of one thing-of two things, bitterly conflicting with one another, and neutralizing any possibility of a happy future, or of matters going on much longer in the way they stood now-that she felt it more than her desire, her absolute duty, to try and speak out.

"Jessie will have about reached Carstairs by this time."

"Yes," said Richard, without looking up from his book.

"She seems extremely well and cheerful; and how young she looked in her bridemaid's dress-almost pretty. Didn't you think so?" "Yes," reiterated the brother; and vouchsafed no more.

"Richard," said Agnes, repressing a wild spasm at her heart, "I have been thinking-I hope your marriage will be the next in the family. If you could find some nice pretty girl in your own position: neither too rich nor too poor (though I would rather she were poor than rich it would be dreadful if any body were to say a Wyvill married for money)-I should be glad, extremely glad, to give up my place here and see the family name kept up, the family happiness complete."

She went over and put her arms round his neck, and then all poor Richard's reserve broke down.

He told his sister-to her unutterable pain, grief, almost indignation-ay, even though she had guessed it before, but it looked so much blacker when condensed by his own confession from a cloudy conjecture into an absolute fact. that the only woman in the world who could make him happy was Jessie Raeburn.

"I have been fond of her all my life, and yet I couldn't ask her. Her horrible money !-five thousand a year I think it is. Agnes, I couldn't, you know."

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"It is well you did not," said Agnes, sharply and sternly; "for she would never have married you. I am quite sure of that."

"Why not?" cried Dick, who was the sort of man that contradiction rouses always into resistance.

"I don't know-do not look at me so, for indeed I don't; and yet I am sure of it. You will never get her."

"I'll try!" said Richard, hoarsely; and began marching up and down the long, low, dark, oaken room in stronger emotion than Agnes had ever seen in him since the day of his brother's loss. "Upon my life and soul, I'll try!"

And nothing would persuade him otherwise. Agnes talked till near midnight-first persuasively, then contemptuously, then angrily-for her pride was up that any Wyvill, any brother of hers, should ask and be refused, as she felt certain would be the case; but Richard was utterly unmoved. He was determined to start for Glasgow the next morning.

"And if you do you are a fool-a mean-spirited, mercenary fool."

Richard's eyes blazed. "And, Agnes, do you know what you are? A selfish, mischiefmaking, wicked woman. I will go! though you and I should never see one another's faces again."

With that word he left her and returned not, though Agnes sat waiting a whole hour, and then crept up to her bedroom in an agony of tears.

Oh, Maurice, Maurice!" she sobbed; and the bright, frank, boyish face of her lost brother came back through the clouds of many years fresh upon her tenacious memory, contrasting with the face of the brother who remained, set in all the hardness of unwontedly hard manhood. "If Maurice were only here!"-He might have been and nearer to her than she knew.

Shortly a light knock came to her door and Richard stood there with all his hardness gone, changed and softened to a degree that seemed

Agnes faltered-stopped; her heart was full. almost miraculous. Richard replied not a word.

"I think it is time you married, Richard; I do really. Hitherto I knew you could not afford it; but now there is only me, and I shall cost you very little; I can live any where. You would be perfectly safe, even if Maurice did

"Agnes, I want to say good-night to you. There are only us two left now; don't let us quarrel. I must go to Glasgow to-morrowit's killing me-till I know my fate, one way or another. But don't send me away in anger; don't let us part with an unkind word."

"Oh, Richard! I didn't mean it. Forgive me." And she hung upon his shoulder as she had never done before in all her days. "Do just as you like, and God bless you wherever you go."

CHAPTER V.

then bent down, clasping her hands and stooping her head upon them; low down, as people are prone to do when some heavy wave of misery or sharp recollection breaks over them. "Oh my darling, my darling!"

Not a word more, nor a sob. Years had smoothed down and softened all things, all except the love which was absolute, sole, and undying. Some women have had such loves, quenched so far as earthly fulfillment goes, in . earliest girlhood; yet surviving in another form to the very close of life-consecrated by death, or confirmed by total separation into a bond which, in the absence of any other, becomes as strong almost as marriage, being in truth the real marriage of the soul.

MISS RAEBURN was sitting alone in the very handsome drawing-room of her very handsome house in Blythswood Square. It was dark, and the fire-light danced on her black velvet dress— she almost always wore black: ill-natured people said, because it made her look so "interesting." But these remarks were always made behind her back, and people well knew she would not have cared one pin, or altered either her mind or her costume one whit, even had she heard them. She had that self-possessed dignity which is very indifferent to public opinion on trivial matters, where indeed public opinion has no right to busy itself at all. She went on her way calmly: accustomed even from her teens to be sole mistress in her uncle's house,sink to the reality of any of the excellent Glaswhere she had now quietly become independent mistress of her own.

Young as she was, she had settled at once into the busy responsible life of a woman of property, who had evidently no intention of changing her condition by marriage. To the natural influence of wealth she added a personal influence very considerable, though exercised in a sweet and womanly way. All Glasgow knew her name well;-in charity, in society, in every good and generous work, Miss Raeburn was always sought for, and always easy to find. And it would be idle to say she did not enjoy her position-she did. A lonely woman must fill her heart and her time with something: Jessie accepted the lot which Providence had assigned to her, and made the best of it; bravely and cheerfully. It had its pleasures. She loved her independence, her power of doing good unquestioned and uncontrolled. Without being in the least ungentle or unlovely, she was already, in a degree, "old - maidish”—that is, she had sufficient strength of character to stand alone. Though barely eight-and-twenty, it never seemed to enter into her own head or that of any one else that she needed either protection or guidance. She was just Miss Raeburn, of Blythswood Square and Woodhouselea; and the idea of her ever becoming Mrs. Anybody seemed far distant, and very improbable, if not quite impossible.

She sat waiting for her carriage to be announced, reading by a small lamp the daily newspaper: until, her eye being caught by the date of it, she laid it down abruptly, and remained with her head sunk between her hands, gazing mournfully into the fire. No wonder, for the paper was dated 1st October: seven years since that first of October when she and her cousins had stood watching for Maurice along the mountain-road, and he never came. "Seven years." She repeated the words, and

It might have been a great mistake-many wise, good, and loving persons may consider it so-that any woman should thus waste her life upon a mere dream: which, if she could have ended it, were far best ended. Yet people are but as they are made: and Jessie could no more have resigned her worshiped ideal of what Maurice was, and what he might have become, to

gow gentlemen whom she was in the habit of meeting; could no more have exchanged that first and last love-kiss-young, passionate, mutual love-for the touch of any mortal lips, than a maid betrothed with all her heart to one man could ever put another man's ring on her finger, or pass as a bride into another man's home. It was not merely unnatural; it was impossible.

Yet no one could call Jessie Raeburn an unhappy or disappointed woman. Hers was no unrequited, misplaced, or unworthy attachment: from first to last it had been wholly sacred and wholly her own. Not one pang of bitterness, or remorse, or humiliation had mingled with its sorrow. Hardly like a regret, though full of the tenderest, most passionate remembrance, were the words, "My darling, my darling!" And then the momentary outburst passed: she sat, quietly and meditatively, waiting for the hour when she had to fulfill her evening engagement. For Miss Raeburn did not shut herself out of the world, but moved therein-playing her part well

yet letting the world peer neither smilingly nor pityingly into her inner life, which was, and ever had been, solely her own.

When the door opened she rose, gathering her rich Indian shawl round her, and moving in her usual composed graceful way across the floor, thinking it was the announcement of her carriage. But it was a visitor so unexpected that she quite started at the sight of him-pale, travel-stained, and agitated Richard Wyvill.

He fixed his eyes upon the little figure before him-the velvet gown,, the dainty lace, the glittering diamonds; it had been Uncle Raeburn's delight to load his niece with diamonds. And Richard said, in his roughest manner: "Don't let me intrude. You were going out to dinner?"

"I was, but-oh cousin!" And a sudden agony of expectation, not dulled after even all

these expectant years, thrilled through her. "Something has happened? What news do you bring ?"

"And,

"I bring no news at all-nothing better nor worse than myself," said he, bitterly. if you like, I will go away directly."

"No, no, I could not think of such a thing," she replied, with her hand upon the bell. But on second thought she went and gave her orders ⚫ herself, thus allowing Richard time to recover his ill mood, and giving a brief minute of solitude to herself. For with a strange recurrence to the ever-abiding thought which underran all her life, she had fancied, oh, wild hope! that Richard's sudden apparition might be caused by tidings of Maurice. No, no! Again, for the thousandth time, the vain hope faded, and she said to herself: "It is the will of God."

Ay, it was. Never in our own way, but in His own way, does the Master grant us our heart's desire and yet still we must "rest in the Lord."

In a few minutes Jessie came back to the drawing-room, cheerful and bright, the white gloves removed and the shawl, though the diamonds still glittered on her neck and in her hair..

"Well, Richard, I don't get a cousin to visit me every day, and so I have sent an apology to the dinner-party; and you and I shall dine together in peace and quietness."

"Thank you. It is very good of you,” said Richard, his irritability soothed in spite of himself by her frank, familiar air, though it caused his heart to sink within him. What if his sister should prove right after all? Still a kind of dogged determination impelled the young man to remain and carry out his intention to face the worst; which could not be worse than much he had already suffered. But it was hours before he could find courage to say a word beyond the commonplace family talk, the habit of the cousins through so many familiar years. Jessie at last brought her pain upon herself by the sudden and very natural question

"And now, Richard, tell me what brought you so unexpectedly to Glasgow ?"

The moment she had said this she felt her mistake; felt that the crisis, which, with a generous woman's delicate ingenuity, she had contrived to stave off so long, had arrived. She could no longer save either her lover or herself from the half dozen desperate words, which, alas! would break the pleasant bond of a lifetime. For after this poor Richard never could be her cousin any more.

Rejected love is nothing new. Most women have had to inflict it, and most men to suffer it, at least once in their lives. It does to neither any incurable harm—that is, when the misfortune is simply a fatality. Only when a woman has willfully led a man on to love her, and denied him-or when he has swamped his honest dignity of honorable manhood in the ungovernable anguish of balked desire-need there

be any irremediable bitterness in such a trial. But in either of these cases both will surely dree their own weird-a very sore one: and they deserve it.

Before Richard had half got out his words, he read his fate in Jessie's eyes. Yet they were very tender eyes-less compassionate than mutely entreating forgiveness, as if she herself must surely have done something wrong. But there was no doubt in them-none of that wavering uncertainty which in this, as in all other things, has destroyed so many a soul. She was perfectly sure of her own mind. She liked him, but she did not love him; and she made him plainly see it, as she had done from the very first. He acknowledged that himself. So, almost before they quite knew what had been said, or answered, the whole thing was over-entirely over and done.

Richard Wyvill was not a pleasant fellowneither attractive in society nor very lovable in family life; but he was an honest fellow for all that. Deep at the core of his rough Yorkshire nature lay a keen sense of honor, a sound stability and faithfulness, which every one belonging to him was forced to appreciate. Jessie did to the full. And now that his bitter secret was out, the young man, in spite of all his disappointment, felt unconsciously relieved. Though Jessie had refused his love she had not wounded his pride. He saw that he was not degraded in her eyes; nay, more, that with a tenderness second only to the tenderness of love returned did she regard the faithful attachment which had followed her, unspoken, for so many

years.

As to the money question, Richard's soreness on this head was forever healed. He felt instinctively that Jessie rejected him simply and solely because she did not love him; that had she loved him she would have thrown her paltry thousands at his feet, saying, "These are nothing less than nothing—but I am worth a little; take me."

So, strange as it may appear, though he had just staked and lost what he then thought to be the one happiness of his life, the young man was not altogether miserable; for he still could respect himself and her. He neither dashed his hand to his brow and fled, nor fell on his knees in frantic entreaty, nor stamped about in anger, nor did any of the foolish things that young fellows are supposed to do under similar circumstances: he sat in his place, like an honest man who has given the best thing a man can give-his heart's love; which, though not accepted, had been neither mocked, nor trifled with, nor despised.

He was just considering whether he ought not now to depart, when a servant entered the drawing-room with a message. A man-"a Hielander-a wee bit camsteary-looking mauniewas wishing a word with the mistress."

"At this hour? What can he want?" said Miss Raeburn, surprised.

"Shall I go down and see?" asked Richard,

perhaps a little glad to resume some shadow of the former familiar cousinly ways.

"Thank you," Jessie answered, glad too. "He says he'll no speak to onybody but the mistress," interposed the old butler, who looked rather strange and perplexed.

"Any thing else?" asked Richard, in a low, awe-struck voice. "Banes.

A wheen banes."

So the mystery was cleared up at last; and they knew that in this world they would never

"Then show him up here. My cousin and I see Maurice more. will see him together."

The an entered, and hung at the drawingroom door, staring about him with bleary eyes; and when Richard asked him his name, he answered, somewhat hesitatingly, that he was "Diarmid M'Diarmid-Diarmid Beg, ye ken." "Indeed I don't," Richard was answering sharply, when he saw Jessie spring forward. "The man-you remember-whom Maurice met, who last saw Maurice."

"Ay, my leddy—just mysel'. And it's about him I come-the puir laddie. Ye'll no hae heard?"

Richard glanced at Jessie, who stood listening with lips apart, white and rigid as a stone statue. At once, by a sort of revelation, he knew why she had never loved him.

For an instant his human nature recoiled, and then the nobler half of the man conquered. To find his rival in his brother-his own dearly beloved and passionately regretted brother—this of all blows would be easiest to bear. Ay, even if Maurice came back and won her.

"What about him-is he alive?" "Truly I canna weel say," replied the Highlander, "but, I fear me, na. Do ye no ken this, Sir?"

Jessie and Richard clasped hands and looked at one another, wistfully and long. Then both the man as well as the woman-lifted up their voices and wept.

After a little while Richard sent Diarmid away down stairs, made Jessie sit down, and, kneeling beside her, opened, in the way they both well remembered, the concealed spring. Inside the case, and from its substantial workmanship most wonderfully preserved, was a little book, which must have been placed thereMaurice must have placed it himself—in the interval between his fall and his dissolution-as the slender and only chance of ever conveying information to his kindred of who he was, or how he died. For, carefully examined, it proved to be a psalm-book of Jessie's, which Jessie well remembered his carrying from church for her that Sunday. One of the mouldy leaves was still turned down at the 121st Psalm :

"I to the hills will lift mine eyes."

He had remembered them, then, in his last hour, and left this token for them, in the only way he could think of. He, the poor boy to whom had come no "aid;" whom "He that keeps Israel" had not kept, but, in the awful mystery of Omnipotent will, had suffered to perish here alone-the handsome, happy, loving, and beloved lad-to be found, after an interval of seven years, "a wheen banes."

And Diarmid unfolded from out his plaid, slowly, like a fearsome thing that he was half afraid to handle, something-it was not easy at first to detect what, so covered was it with mil- Jessie sat dumb reading and repeating with dew, and damp, and moss. But on closer in- soundless lips the words of the psalm, which spection the cousins recognized it as being a seemed at first such a ghastly mockery. But strong tin case, fastening with a spring, which slowly, with that agony of belief which forces itMaurice had had made to contain his botanical self upon the heart, not the reason, at an hour or entomological specimens: he was very fond like this, when all the anchors of faith seem of collecting both. Outside, on a silver plate, torn up, and the soul is ready to drift out blindhe had had engraved-and it was legible still-ly upon a Godless sea, there came into hers a his name and address: "Maurice Wyvill, Wy- miraculous comfort--the comfort that, for all vill Court, Yorkshire." they knew, he might also have had, dying for"Where did you find that? Tell us quick-lorn and alone on the bleak mountain side. ly!" cried Richard.

And then M'Diarmid explained--not quick, ly, but they understood him somehow-that a few days since he had been belated on the mountains, in a spot that was seldom traversed-not once in several years, being very dangerous on account of the numerous holes, fissures in the rocks, narrow chasms so overhung with heather that a man might easily step upon it, and be plunged in a moment to the depths below. He, Diarmid, had done this-only, with the Providence which they say guards drunkards and young children, he had managed to crawl out, bruised and sobered, but still alive.

"It was

just the Lord's mercy that I wasna kilt, like mony a better man; for at the bottom I found this, ye ken"—and he pointed to the tin

case.

And the more she dwelt on it the clearer this comfort grew. If during the few minutes or hours-thank God, they could not have been many!-that elapsed before consciousness left him, Maurice had had strength and courage to do this—to think of them all at home, to send them his last message, as it were-though he died, he had died nobly, calmly, in a manner not unworthy of their Maurice. And though, humanly viewed, it was a death so miserable that they dared not suffer their imaginations to dwell upon it, but passed at once to the thought of Maurice in heaven, with his sufferings ended, his new life begun-still, man's impotence is God's omnipotence. It might have been-and indeed appeared most likely, from the position in which the remains were found-that he died so peacefully that death felt to him no more

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than falling asleep, with the Everlasting Arms | afterward, another stone was erected by Jessie underneath him, and his head pillowed on the bosom of Everlasting Love.

Maurice's bones were laid, by common family consent, in a spot not far from the place they were discovered the little mountain graveyard, where, during that merry month of September, they had all often leaped the low wall, and sat among the long grass, or read the inscriptions on the ancient stones. There, soon

Raeburn-she asked permission to do it and Richard allowed her-on which was recorded, in the simple Scotch fashion of kirk-yard memorials, Maurice's name, age, and how he died. Nothing more, except the words-incomprehensible addition to many readers, yet full of peace to her who sometimes sat and read it there-with the grand mountains looking on her, and the sea calm and blue, and the heavens shining overhead-"Psalm 121."

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