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Thus agonized in spirit he proceeded to feel it an honour in being permitted to the church, where he found a large congre-record the event, and shall give it verbatim gation assembled and waiting to hear the as it came to me, by the hands of my esWord : and then it was, he observed, that teemed brother Button (of Leicester,) who he was more deeply distressed than ever, was commissioned by the bereaved husband and especially for the dishonour which he to bring it.-Ed.] feared would fall upon religion, through him, that day. He resolved, however, to MY DEAR FRIEND BANKS:-You have alattempt, the service. He introduced it by ready been informed of the removal from a singing a psalm ; during which time his world of sin and sorrow to a world of holiagitations were increased to the highest ness, and joy, and peace of my dear and degree. When the moment for prayer com- much lamented wife, which took place on menced, he arose, as one in the most peril- the 29th of May, the day she was 45 years ous and painful situation, and, with arms of age, after a long and painful affliction. extended to the heavens, began with this And she having left a most sweet and outcry, 'Lord, have mercy upon me! The blessed testimony of the Lord's goodness cloud instantly broke away, and an un- and mercy to her, I have sent you a few speakably joyful light shone in upon his particulars, and some of her sayings during soul, so that his spirit seemed to be caught her affliction; but must leave it with you up to the heavens, and he felt as if he saw to correct, and insert or reject what you God, as Moses did, on the Mount, face to please, as I find our dear pastor, who has face, and was carried forth to him, with an furnished me with a brief outline of the enlargement greater than he had' ever be- sermon he preached on the occasion, has fore experienced ; and on every page of the mentioned a few things that I have myself. Scriptures saw his divinity inscribed in Truly, my dear friend, I have lost in her brightest colours. The result was a deep a most valuable wife-my dear boys a most solemnity on the face of the whole congre- affectionate and excellent mother-and the gation; and the house, at the end of the church a most valuable and excellent memprayer, was a Bochim.' He gave them the ber. But you are not ignorant of her sterl. subject of his evening meditations, which ing worth, both as regards spiritual and was brought to his fuil remembrance, with temporal things; for, as regards the former, an overflowing abundance of other weighty she was indeed godly above many; and and solemn matter. The Lord blessed the the latter, careful and managing above discourse, so that it proved the happy many: so that her price was above pearls, means of the conversion of about thirty and as Newton says, ' Her care and manpersons. This day he spoke of ever after- agement was the chief concern of my life, wards as his harvest day.-Taken from the she was the very hinge on which my life “Evangelical Magazine,” 1807.
turned ! But she is gone: and the only
solid comfort I can find, is, when I can in The Grace of God,
any small measure feel that I have an interest in those blessed and glorious realities that her soul ardently longed after, and which she is now richly enjoying.
Your affectionate friend, E. W. Mrs. HANNAH WALKER, Late of Leicester.
My dear wife, from her first conviction,
was a woman of a very tender conscience, [Christian Reader :-You are here pre- and favoured with great zeal and warmsented with a brief memorial of the life heartedness in the cause of Christ, which and death of one of our heavenly Father's you and many others can bear witness to, beloved saints. I have read it myself with and of the godly and and savory convermuch solemn and grateful feelings of soul. sation they have enjoyed, and the excellent My acquaintance with the deceased was counsel they have received from her, both slight, but it was sufficient to enable me to of a spiritual and temporal nature; and in
and to declare that she was (by the all her actions and deportment was a most grace of God,) an exceedingly choice mother praiseworthy example of a humble follower in Israel. A more sober, steady walking, of the meek and lowly Jesus. faithful and affectionate christian woman The first conviction she had was when I never knew. I have mourned in my soul about twenty-four years of age. Having over her death, because I know full well, gone out with what is called,,'a pleasurethat while she is unspeakably happy, my party,' in running down a hill she felt her dear brother Walker has sustained a loss heart beat within her, and the thought that must frequently cause his poor heart struck her that it was her soul, and she to bleed; the dear children have lost a said, within herself, that if she was spared mother of mothers; and pastor Garrard to reach home, she would never go on such has lost a friend that could sympathise an occasion again. But, however, these with him, and did keenly feel for him in impressions wore off, and she went to the all his trials. But, the Lord has taken her same place once or twice after. But shortly home. May each and all of us have grace after this she lost a brother by death, and given that through faith and patience, we manifesting a great concern about his body, may also at last inherit the promises. I her sister said, “it does not concern me
AS MANIFESTED IN THE GOSPEL LIFE
AND PEACEFUL DEATH OF
about his body, but to know what has be- remarkable that she never had the least come of his soul; which remark sunk deep fear of death the whole of her affliction. in her heart, and never left her, though it She remarked to me two or three times, did not for the time cause any deep con- how kind the Lord was, for I have never cern. But soon after, being, in the provi- had the least fear of death all this affliction, dence of God, removed to a distant part of and which was an evidence to her, as well the country, the Lord put a cry into her as to me, that the Lord was about to take heart which none but himself could satisfy, her to himself; and it was truly astonishand which, in his own good time he did, ing to see with what calmness and compowith these words, 'Daughter, be of good sure she spoke of her end, and at intervals, cheer, thy sins are forgiven thee; but the as the Lord gave her strength, set her first words that struck her mind very for- house in order, made every arrangement cibly was,' Behold he prayeth! and being for the funeral, &c., with the greatest forat that time in a secluded spot, none but titude, clearly showing the sweet peace she God and herself knew what sweet com- enjoyed in her soul; and one day she said munion she enjoyed with her heavenly to me, after she had been arranging some Father around the private walks, in the of her little matters, “If any body had told park, and in the private rooms in the house. me the happiness that I should have enA circumstance occurred about this time, joyed, and the blessed light that I should which I must not forget to mention: being have had in the very prospect of death, I in a family that were strict church people, could not have believed them; so that' it and read prayers morning and evening; will not matter to you nor me how it may and her mistress required the servants to be with me in my last moments, if I am repeat the Lord's prayer after her; but not not able to say a single word, the work is being able, at that time, to call God her done; and done for me. And from that Father, from a feeling sense that he was time (according to her own request) we did her Father, she could not repeat the words; not force any conversation with her, her she was therefore called up to know why voice being broken. she did not repeat the words; when she She was not able to say much in her told her mistress that not feeling God was last moments, as it was exceedingly painher Father, she could not, but if she par- ful to her to articulate at all; but had she ticularly wished it, she would, as a com- not been able to have said one word, I mand from her, but not from God; but should not have had the least doubt of her however, she said, she clearly saw the hand security in Christ, she having given numof the Lord towards her; for her mistress berless unquestionable evidences of her intold her she would not press it, and also terest in his great salvation. On the gave her permission to go once on the Sabbath Day, fortnight previous to her Sabbath to hear a servant of the Lord who death, I said, 'this is the beloved Sabbath, preached the everlasting gospel to a few an earnest of that eternal Sabbath. Yes, poor people, a few miles distant, wbich she she said, which is secured for me, but I esteemed an inestimable privilege, and cannot talk about it now.' She was not in where her soul was often greatly refreshed. raptures during her illness; but her mind
Soon after this she was brought, in the was sweetly stayed on the Lord the whole providence of God to Leicester, and was di- of the time, and excepting at very short rected to the chapel in York Street, where intervals, when the enemy was permitted the late Thomas Hardy laboured; but, be to assault her, from whose temptations she ing just at the time of his death, she did was not exempt, for as she told me he not hear him, but the late Mr. Robert would sometimes set before her eyes one Creasy, who succeeded Mr. Hardy, coming thing, and sometimes another to draw her about this time, she was very highly fa- mind from meditating upon heavenly voured under his ministry, and by him she things, still she manifested the most cheerwas baptised, greatly rejoicing in the Lord; ful resignation to the will of God. If any and continued through evil and good re- spoke of her sufferings which were very port, a consistent and honorable member of great, she would say, 'I shall not have one the church through Mr. Creasey, Mr. Black pain more than my heavenly Father sees stock, and Mr. Garrard's ministry, (under good for me. She often expressed an ardthe last named of which, according to her ent longing to be gone, and often repeated own words, her soul was greatly strength that verse of the Poetened and established,) up to the time of her
I feel this mud wall cottage shake, last illness, which began in October, 1847 ;
And long to see it fall; from the very first of which she felt per
That I my willing flight may take suaded would be unto death, as when plead
To him who is my all. ing with her heavenly Father to make it And also one day she said to a friend, manifest unto her whether this sickness Susan, you must sing when I am gone; was unto death, the dear Lord spoke these her friend said, 'What shall we sing ?** For sweet words with great power to her soul— me to die is gain; she said, instantly. At 'In my Father's house are many mansions, another time she said, 'You must clap your if it were not so I would have told you; I hands and rejoice when I am gone. She go to prepare a place for you;' and which never once manifested the least desire to words were much blessed to her many get better; for she said I am sure I shall times during her affliction; and it is very sin again, and would therefore, rather de
part and be for ever freed from sin; so that I quest, by giving her the following scripwhen I read the Obituary of Mrs. Vinal in ture, after which no argument could move the June number of the Vessel, whose ex- her from her steadfast belief, that God was perience was similar in many things to about to take her home to himself. The my dear wife; of her it might be said, text was this, ‘In my Father's house are death desired and not dreaded; for she many mansions, if it were not so, I would said several times, the chariot is long in have told you. I go to prepare a place for coming, but it is on the road, and will you. From that time, she appeared to soon be here.' And if any friend hinted have little or no desire to live in this that the time of her departure was near, world. Yea, sbe was anxious to depart and her countenance would brighten up, and be with Christ. Indeed, she would not hear she evidently rejoiced at the thought that anything about recovering. She told me the time was very near. And I am sure with her own mouth, that she had no desire that as her afflictions increased and to live in this world; for if she were to reabounded, so her consolations in Christ cover, she knew that she should sin again, abounded also.
and that had been a great burden and One evening she had a most blessed sight plague to her; therefore, if she had her of the Lord Jesus Christ in his white choice, she had rather depart to be with robes standing at the foot of the bed. A Christ and sin no more. I never saw any christian friend who was with her at the person so anxious to die before as she was. time, said, it was as if the room was filled She had many extraordinary manifestawith the shining glory of the Lord.' tions from Christ, inasmuch as she said
Christ who had been very precious to her she could not have believed, until she had soul for many years, was exceedingly and experienced it herself, that any one in the growingly precious in her last moments. mortal body could feel such sweetness, and That hymn was very much blessed to her, see such light and glory as she had expe
As they draw near their journey's end, rienced during her last illness. Her spirit,
How precious is their heavenly friend; it appeared, lived in heaven, while her And when in death they bow their head, body lingered on earth. She arranged all
He's precious on a dying bed, As also,
her affairs with the greatest precision; and The joy prepared for suffering saints
said to her husband, 'There, I have given Will make amends for all.
you my last directions and advice (which And,
were strictly attented to), and, said she, Tho' painful at present,
when you turn your back on me in the 'Twill cease before long,
church yard, and have left me in the grave, And then oh how pleasant
then ask advice and direction of the Lord The conqueror's song.
for your future proceedings. And,' she A few hours before she drew her last said, ' when I am gone, tell Mr. Garrard to breath she said with her feeble voice, but preach from the very word the Lord gave with much fervency,
unto me, viz., “In my Father's house are Oh, for an overcoming faith,
many mansions,' &c. To cheer my dying hours.
“I am not a great admirer of funeral And her last words, which she repeated sermons, nevertheless, at the dying request two or three times, were, The cord will of a saint of God, I feel compelled to comsoon be broken, and then the gates will be ply; I will just give the principal heads opened;' a friend said, "To receive thy and divisions, and leave it with the reader ransomed spirit;' 'Yes,' she said; and
for enlargement by meditation. then without a struggle, or a sigh, sweetly
1. That we have no continuing house
on earth. fell asleep in Jesus. Truly it may be said of her, 'Her end was peace; the memory in heaven.
II. That we have an everlasting house of the just is blessed.' E. WALKER.
III. It is a prepared place for a pre[Much more, my dear friend Banks, might pared people. be said of the grace of God, as manifested First: This stupendous universe, or in my beloved wife, but thus much must the habitable globe, has been the temporary suffice.]
residence of mortals in all ages and gene
rations; but by reason of sin and death, all [The following is a brief sketch of the must pass out of it. All flesh is grass. sermon Mr. Garrard preached on the occa- The wicked shall be turned into hell, but sion of Mrs. Walker's death.]
the righteous shall go into life eternaí. "MY DEAR FRIENDS, -Our beloved sister, Second: The visible church of God on Hannah Walker, for some years past, had earth, is but a temporary lodgment, or been subject to periodical attacks of pul- refreshment house by the way.
Not a monary consumption, and in this last at- visible vestage of many of the churches in tack, she made it a matter of earnest prayer Asia remains. The saints of God in all to the Lord to know whether it was the ages, assembled in houses made with hands, Lord's will to raise her up once more, to have been removed from them to their continue a while longer with her husband mansions above. Patriarchs, prophets, and her two children, or whether it was apostles, and numerous saints, have enjoyed his will to take her to himself? The Lord the ordinance and preaching of the word, was graciously pleased to answer her re- and refreshments of the lower house, the
presence of Christ, the light of God's coun-infinite space; there saints in their glorious tenance, and the comforts of the Holy bodies will have a boundless range of Ghost; but here they had no continuing pleasure grounds; uncreated, immortal house, or city: by faith they sought one to groves, living fountains and rivers of decome. One generation of saints pass away, light. God shall wipe away all tears from and another, by the Spirit of God, are their eyes, and there shall be no more raised up to fill their places on earth, until death. No death nor disease shall ever the consummation of all things, when the enter into those immortal, uncreated, glomarriage of the Lamb comes, and the bride rious and everlasting mansions of the in all nations have made herself ready, or saints. are prepared for the palace of glory above. Third : : The mansions will be your own
“Third: Our houses of earth, brick, or property, bequeathed and made over to you stone, that we may build, buy, or hire, are in the name of Christ, who is heir of all no certain dwelling places; we cannot keep things; and you,' heirs of God, and jointplagues, diseases, nor death out of them by heirs with Christ. No sophisticating lawall the skill of physicians ; yea, we take yer, either on earth or elsewhere, shall ever the seeds of disease and death, into our rob you of your mansions; Christ is your houses with us, and death ultimately is law-giver, head, husband, and glorious sure to turn us 'out, either into the dark king: the church is his consort queen for and dismal house of hell, or into the ever. And God in this time state is pleased glorious shining mansions in heaven, pre- to give the heirs of glory, while in this pared for them that love God. We may mortal, earthly house, the writings and enter into our houses here on earth, hired, title-deeds of their mansions above; and bought, or built new for us, in our wedding these our sister had clearly written before clothes, but death turns us out muffled in she departed out of this earthly house, and a ghastly shroud, covered with a black she had light given to read them herself, pall, and lodges the body in the dark grave, before she
departed, and was anxious to be until the resurrection day, and the mourn- off to take possession, and be with Christ, ers go about the streets.
God had written his law of faith and love' Fourth: This vile body, 'the earthly in her heart and mind, and none could house of our tabernacle,' is no certain blot it out. Men are very particular about dwelling place for the soul. Sin has bred their writings and parchments of old the plague in the house and down it must houses here on earth ; but how few appear come. Yea, through sin, time and age, the to be concerned about the writings and house becomes untenantable, and to a title to the house above. O ye humble, heaven-born, sanctified soul, a miserable doubting souls, who have not had clear lodgment, and the more of the sanctifying evidences, sue at the Will Office of heaven Spirit, and grace of God is given to the soul, for your writing and title deeds of your the more loathsome the house becomes; glorious mansion. Ask and it shall be and those souls who have smelled and given you.” And you that have once had tasted the sweet savour of heaven and the witness of the Spirit in your soul, in Christ in the old house, are sure to smell whose hearts God hath put his fear, and the greatest stink of the plague, and have written his law of love in your hearts the most ardent desires to leave the house, and minds, remember what God doth, is depart and be with Christ, which is far done for ever; nothing can be added to it, better; which you know was the case with nothing taken from it; never expect God the apostle Paul, though the fleshly mind to do that again which he has once done. may still linger to stay longer.
Men have the writings of their houses made II. That we have an everlasting house out but once in their lifetime. God writes in heaven.
it but once, adds nothing to it, takes First: : A house not made with hands, nothing from it for ever; but men may viz., not of this building. Some have dis- have the writings of their houses in their puted to know whether heaven is only a house, and yet cannot find them, nor read state, or a place. I believe it is both a state them in the dark; but when light in the of peace, rest, perfect happiness, and glory morning breaks in at the windows, they unspeakable; and a solid state, a place im- can read again. So pray for more light movable, because Jesus saith,' I go to pre- from heaven, the light of God's countepare a place for you.' Many mansions, nance, that you may read them again and many houses, palaces, superb, uncreated, again, and say, 'I know that if this earthly and glorious, lighted with God's presence, tabernacle were destroyed, I have a buildwhere the saints will breathe only the pure ing of God, a house not made with hands, Spirit of God; which is light, life, and love, eternal in the heavens. where the happy departed souls will ulti- III. Heaven is a prepared place for a mately be clothed with a light transparent, prepared people. immortal, and glorious body, being clothed First: : They are prepared by a new upon with their house, which is from birth, being born of the Spirit, washed in heaven,' which will never decay, neither the blood of Christ, sanctified by the Spirit, can they die any more.”
the word and the blood, and clothed in Second: The house is eternal, not of cor- Christ's righteousness, and thus prepared ruptable material, but was from everlast- for glory. Christ, by his life, death, obeing: everlasting habitations, standing in dience, and righteousness, hath prepared
the way to heaven for them, passed through Hackney, with profitof soul, she felt inclined the gates of hell and death, took the keys to cast in her lot with them, which I believe away with him; heaven's everlasting doors she did, till the ministry became closed, were opened for his personal entrance, and which she expressed as a source of great he is there to prepare a place for his trial to her soul, although she said she people.
could see that there was a deal of that in "Second; His personal presence as their some of the friends, as well as the minister, mediator, advocate and intercessor, is a that needed the pruning knife, and that preparation for them. If a bride had ever God was bringing his own forth to see and such a glorious mansion with all accommo- acknowledge the same. But now the next dations, and found not her husband there trial was, where can my soul find a home? whom she loved, the place would not be Wander about she could not. Give hersuitably prepared. But Christ being there self to prayer she must, which by the in person to receive departing souls, every- help of the Lord, she did. Just about this thing is prepared for their reception, noth- time she said, a friend said to her, ‘Did ing wanting; and being united to Christ you ever hear that man at Beulah Chapel ?' in everlasting wedlock, the mansions She said, 'No.' Her friend urged her to go; are their own, as being heirs and joint which she did. She said the first time she heirs with him. No rent, no rates, and it heard you it was not with that refreshing is all freehold for ever. They shalí enter she could wish; but solemnly convinced into the king's palace, and go no more out that it was God's soul-searching word that All the tribute they pay is a willing she had heard, and go again she must, and offering--a tribute of praise. 'Unto him so did the Lord command his blessing on that loved us, and washed us in his own the word ; that some of the most solemn blood, and made us kings and priests to and sacred hours in communion with God and his Father for ever.
Christ did her soul enjoy; thus, to use her W. GARRARD.
own words, 'Whether in the body, she did not know.'
After hearing you on one occasion speak The late Pamela Jacobs.
on Believer's Baptism, she became much
concerned to follow her dear Lord in that MY DEAR BROTHER AND PASTOR IN THE despised ordinance, although she said she LORD :- Grace and peace be multiplied knew it would bring upon her a great to you. Having many times felt my soul cross which would be the loss of her situacomforted and refreshed in reading the tion, which was truly the case. Now to experience of the living family of God, my seek a place near to the house of God was mind has been impressed with this feeling, her desire and prayer. The last place she that some notiee should be taken of the lived at was our dear friend and brother life and death of our departed sister P. Mr. Josiah Denham; and I feel happy Jacobs. I was one with the rest of our to say that their loss of her, as a God feardear friends that heard her relate many ing servant, corresponds with what I have precious things at the giving in of her ex- here imperfectly stated of her. perience. Little did I think how soon the
It appears she was taken ill with the Lord would remove her from the church small pox, and taken home to her mother's militant, to the church triumphant above. house, and from thence to the hospital, As it was therefore my happiness to hear at where she died, telling her dear mother different times, from her own lips, the not to fret, for she was going to dwell with goodness of God to her soul, I thought I Christ above; the inmates of the hospital should like our friends who read the said they had never witnessed such a happy Vessel to know how graciously the Lord death there; they were truly led to see that did fulfill his promise both in life and in 'Blessed are the dead that die in the Lord.' death to our sister. It appears that Mr. Just before she died, she earnestly reIsaacs, of Hackney, was the honoured in quested her young sister to read the 43rd strument, in the hands of the blessed chapter of Isaiah, speaking of the preciousSpirit, of leading her to see an end of all ness of that chapter to her soul. I recol. perfection in the creature, and the glory of lect her speaking several times of that that perfect righteousness wrought out, and chapter, in the course of conversation, bebrought in by her dear Redeemer, when he fore her illness, as one that had many preached from John i. 17,'For the law was times been so powerfully applied to her given by Moses, but grace and truth came soul. Thus lived, and thus died our sister, by Jesus Christ. This verse, her mother as a witness of those precious truths, told me was particularly marked in her my brother, that the Lord has enabled you Bible, with her name attached round the from time to time to deliver amongst us. verse. Oh, how dear and sacred to such souls May the Lord go on to bless us, whom are the words that the blessed Spirit is our dear sister has left behind in the pleased to impress on the soul. I recollect wilderness, with much of the overshanow, at this moment, how she referred to dowing of his blessed Spirit; so that we that solemn time, and dated all her conflicts may say and feel with the Lord's dear seras commencing from that moment. After the vant, 'For us to live is Christ, and to die Lord had thus appeared she became very is gain.' much impressed to find a home with the
Your's, in undying love, E. PACKER. Lord's people. Having heard Mr. Hugh's of