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It is nearly two months since the commencement of the revival, which has been mostly among the young people. The way had sometime been preparing for this, when Mr. K. came and spent one month here, preaching every afternoon to professors of religion, and in the evening to others, particularly to those who were not Christians.

The remembrance of those seasons is like a green spot in this desert world. We came forth from our dark places, and stood in the light of the Sun of Righteousness; we cast off our garments of mourning, and put on the garments of praise, and already the glory from the celestial city seemed beaming down upon us. It seems to us now, as though we can never go back to the troubled streams of this world, having tasted of the streams which flow from the throne of God and the Lamb. But, dear M., I know not how to tell you half. Many are changed-and more than all, and I have been keeping this to tell you last, our own dear ;* my heart is very full-what shall I say! She has joined our little prayer meeting, and our intercourse now is so delightful, it seems like heaven begun on earth. It is sometime since she became interested. Before the revival she bad begun to feel that this isfy the wants of her immortal soul. ments there was still an 'aching void.' perplexities and discouragements, since she began to think seriously upon the subject, but our Heavenly Father has been leading her along very gently, and bringing her into the right way. Let us rejoice together in this. Cannot you, my dear sister, even in your affliction, thank God that one more dear one is added to that band who are ever to live and praise God around his throne? Some of our beloved ones are already there; and we are waiting here, in this our pilgrimage, for our Saviour to call us.

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come in his own good time. 'And them also that sleep in Jesus, will God bring with him.' very much as though we shall not only know our departed friends, but that it will also be an addition to our happiness, to have them with us. Does not this seem to intimate that we shall still love and be interested in those whom we knew and loved on the earth, more than those, with whom we are to begin an acquaintance? Nor will this at all interfere with our loving every one. It does not, to my mind, seem requisite to the perfect bliss of heaven, that we should have equal love to all. I have had a little conversation with father on the subject, and he said that 'there was nothing which could lead us to think that friendships begun on earth, and founded in pure motives, might not be continued and increased in heaven.' I have thought much on the subject, dear M., and have heard various opinions about it, some of which have made me unhappy; and I have come to the conclusion to leave the matter with God. He can fill our largest desires. We are in his hands. Our dear departed friends are with him at rest. Let us see to it, that we are prepared for that rest which remaineth for the people of God. This is the great thing, after all, that we have a part in the great salvation. Then our cup of happiness will be full in the other world, even though we may not here, know the way in which God will fill it. I long to see you once again, dear sister of my heart, to mourn with you, and to look with you to heaven where Jesus is, and where we may be, if we trust in him. Oh, that we could love and serve him more perfectly. How sweet to feel that in heaven there will be no more sin. We must toil, each in our part of the vineyard, doing what little we can, till we go to our rest in heaven. There we shall spend an eternity together. There I shall know all that you have known and loved. Let us 'comfort one another with these words.""

CHAPTER V.

HER RELIGIOUS WRITINGS.

It is with some hesitancy on the part of friends, that the following extracts are permitted to occupy a place in this volume. They were written exclusively for the benefit of the individual who penned them, and are a record of her views and feelings on the subject of religion, with notices of such facts and events as interested her at the time, together with the effect which these had on her religious character. They are selected from a journal which she commenced in January, 1841, and closed in June, 1843, just before leaving home for her residence in the East.

There are those to whom it appears to be a species of sacrilege to expose to the scrutiny of others the private religious exercises of an individual. It will be seen that the manuscript from which these extracts are made, is not exclusively of this character. If it were, this would not constitute the only ground of hesitancy. A difficulty is felt in making from the mass such selections as shall exhibit her character in its true light. The objections against keeping a record of the daily religious exercises of the heart, or rather against exposing this record to the scrutiny of others after the death of the individual who kept it, might, it is thought, be made against any thing which should cause the light of the Christian to shine before men in this dark world.

To make such a record useful to others, it is indispensable that it accord with the traits of Christian experience delineated in the New Testament; and also that there be nothing in the life strikingly at variance with such a record.

Mary is known to have carried her religion into every thing. Her Christian experience was not suffered to lie dormant within, an inoperative principle, confined to herself and useless to others; but it was as a perennial spring, overflowing in its fullness, and fertilizing all around. From the moment, when in her joy at having "found God," she exclaimed, “I am happy," it was her constant, uniform, and untiring effort, to lead others to a participation in the same happiness with herself.

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Her religion also was the religion of the Bible. sterner doctrines, as well as its milder precepts, were allowed to have their full influence over her. She took it, and not the maxims of the world, for her guide. It was a “lamp to her feet and a light to her path," and by it she has no doubt been led to find her home in heaven. But like all other Christians, she was but imperfectly sanctified, and many and severe were her inward struggles, in her attempts to lead a consistent Christian life.

She had a buoyancy of spirit and depth of sympathy which extended to every living thing, and those traits, with others of a kindred nature, fitted her to enjoy life in a high degree. But while they made her more interesting as a friend and more useful as a Christian, they at the same time constituted the principal sources of her trial; and it was through these mainly, that the discipline came, which fitted her so well for usefulness in life, and for a participation in the joys of the redeemed.

As she never separated religion from the active duties and daily enjoyments of life, so in her private journal she

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has not disconnected these; but while it contains a faithful record of her religious views and feelings, it gives them in connection with the objects and events by which she was influenced in her intercourse with the world around her.

But before making extracts from the journal, it may not be inappropriate to take a brief notice of her earlier religious writings. How early she commenced the practice of committing things to writing for a religious use, is not certainly known; but it was before she felt competent to originate thoughts for this purpose herself, and she therefore made use of the suggestions of others. The selections were her own, and they show a discrimination which is rather unusual in one so young as she was when they were made.

At the commencement of a manuscript which was found after her death, amongst several others of a similar character, is this sentence: "I must remember every day I live that I have a God to glorify-a soul to save."

In the same trembling and unformed hand, were copied with slight alterations, several resolutions of President Edwards. On reading these the first time they met the eye after her death, they seemed to be an epitome of her life, and on this account they are copied here.

1. Resolved never to lose one moment of time, but spend it in the most profitable way I can.

2. Resolved never to do any thing I should be afraid to do were it the last hour of my life.

3. Resolved to think much on all occasions of my dying. 4. Resolved to find out fit objects of my charity.

5. Resolved never to do any thing out of revenge.

6. Resolved that I will so live as I shall wish I had done when I come to die.

7. Resolved to maintain strict temperance in eating and drinking.

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